Monday, May 16, 2011

life after surgery...

I've started writing a blog entry at least 10 times since my surgery. It's been tough for me to write about how I'm doing because it changes from day to day... even minute to minute. I've had a lot of good days and some not so good days. It's been 3 weeks since my surgery and even with the tough days, I am doing better than I ever imagined I would. I feel good for the most part and happy the cancer is out of my body. I have a lot to be thankful for right now and I really am thankful. But, I have days where this is hard for me. I look at myself in the mirror and don't recognize the person looking back at me. I don't look like myself and some days I don't feel like myself.

I have a Pet Scan scheduled for tomorrow. This scan is to check the spots found on my liver and lungs. My doctor has not seen these spots as a concern, but just wants to make sure there hasn't been any changes since my first scan in November. I trust my doctor that these nodules are not cancer, but I can't help but feel anxious. I will keep everyone updated.